23w6d Bump Update

Little man you are one day away from viability!! I did some research and you would be considered a micro preemie, you'd have eyelashes, and eyebrows. But your little eyes would still be fused shut. You'd need help to breath due to premature lung development, and it would be a long journey in the NICU. You'd be about the length of a corn cob, and weigh around a pound and a half (amazing that I am carrying you inside of me and you grew from smaller than a pin head to how big you are now! And some days by how much movement I feel you definitely feel SO much bigger!). One of the factors that impact survival at this age is birth weight, which makes me so happy that you were in the 55th percentile at last appointment, and were guessed to weigh 1lb 4 oz already. They say that babies that weigh more than 2lbs 3 oz do much better than those that weigh less.

BUT the good thing is, God has answered my prayers to have a cervix of steel, and you are safe and sound inside my womb still! I truly believe I do not need to worry about preterm delivery (especially this early) but I love being informed and educated about EVERYTHING it seems. If I don't know something, Google becomes my best friend. I hope you have this same craving for education and learning random facts about random things. I pray you will excel in school, and you will love life and learning something new every day.

On to the bump photos...here they are! I am smiling even though I feel like a hillbilly because my front tooth's bonding that fixed a chip in my left front tooth fell out! It is horrible. And quite embarrassing. You cannot tell in these pictures, but when I laugh or talk, it is not pretty. I am so blessed to have good teeth, minus this one chip. I pray for you that you have strong, healthy, cavity resistant, teeth! Right now it feels so awkward to smile, to eat, and to talk. Not fun! And to top it off, I cannot get into the dentist until Friday, and my first day of class is Thursday!! Seriously, what dentist goes on vacation? :-P

You can tell this is the side little guy sits on
if you look at me facing this way and compare it to me facing the other way

See! Not quite as big looking! lol
But look how long my hair is getting! :-D I LOVE it!

Little man is definitely pushing is little butt out during this picture,
making my belly more pronounced.
I also have been trying to keep up on drinking more water
And eating healthier...weight this week shows it! :-)
Which makes me VERY happy!!

Look how far my belly has come!
about 13 weeks til I am considered full term, 16 weeks til my due date!

Also, I realized I never shared my ultrasound pictures from last ultrasound so here they are:

Crockpot Salsa Chicken

I didn't take any pictures this time around, but will definitely share the link to the pin that I found this recipe at, and they have a picture :-)

Can you say DELICIOUS? I have really been on a Mexican kick lately: tacos, fajitas, seven layer taco dip, and these salsa chicken tacos. YUM I bet this would be good on nachos instead of beef.

This is how you make it, again I altered their recipe. I could have cut back on some of the salsa/sour cream/cream of mushroom.

Here is the original recipe: (You can find it HERE)

• 4 boneless, skinless chicken breasts (frozen is okay!)
• 1 cup salsa
• 1 can cream of chicken soup
• 1 packet taco seasoning
• 1/2 cup sour cream
• 6 tortillas

But here is what I did:

• 28 oz of chicken (again I needed to weigh it for calories)
• 1 cup bean and corn salsa
• 1/2 cup medium salsa
• 1 1/2 cups sour cream
• 1 1/2 cups cream of MUSHROOM soup
• 1 packet of McCormick Fajita seasoning
• 5/8 cup whole wheat flour (again only because I wanted to thicken it up a bit...decrease some of the sour cream and salsa you should be fine)

I used what I had, and was going to add mushrooms to it, but got too busy before work and too tired in the morning when I got home to add it.

I mixed the salsa, sour cream, cream of mushroom soup, and fajita seasoning together in crock pot before adding the chicken. I put on low before I went to work and had James stir it and put crock pot on keep warm when he got home. I probably would have been done then! But I love how nice it is just to have something simmering warm on the counter when it comes home so I can have a quick bit to eat (I have been quite hungry lately, little man is already eating us out of house and home! ;-) hahaha).

When I got home I took the chicken out, shredded it and added the flour to the sauce to thicken it up. Then replaced in slow cooker on low to finish thickening a bit until we got up and I helped James get his lunch around.

This time I weighed the food so we could go by ounces. We tend to weigh our food more than measure with measuring (James likes it better! and it is more accurate). This recipe made 13 servings of about 4 ounces (it is like 3.9) for 146 calories, 13 carbs, 5 g of fat, and 15 g of protein.

The good thing about this recipe is you could add other veggies to get some extra into diet (I was thinking mushrooms, maybe a few more onions, could even add some diced peppers or I bet black olives would be good as well). AND you can make it as spicy as your taste buds wish. Like it hot? Use spicy taco seasoning and hot salsa, and you could even add hot sauce. Like it mild? Use a mild taco seasoning and mild taco seasoning. It is delicious with cheese on top in a taco shell. Yum!

I am looking forward to eating this for lunch today! (I ate breakfast at like 2, gotta love third shift!)

Next Crock Pot Adventure: undecided, need to search pinterest for what I want to try making. James is asking for Chili! But honestly, I am not very good at making a small pot of chili so that might wait for next week when I know we can have people over to help eat it!

Today I am also 23w6d and that means picture day! =D woohoo!

Listen To This Little One...

Listen to the Mustn'ts, child, listen to the Don'ts
Listen to the Shouldn'ts, the Impossibles, the Won'ts.
Listen to the Never Haves, then listen close to me.
Anything can happen, child, Anything can be.
                                                         -Shel Silverstein

The above poem truly warms my heart. May you forever listen to God and know that anything can happen, any thing is possible. You are our proof of this.

I cannot sleep today, allergies and post-nasal drip are wrecking havoc on my throat and ability to sleep. I sit here sipping on some warm cinnamon apple tea, in hopes of soothing my throat some. The TV is on, but all I can think of is you. You are SO worth every discomfort this pregnancy is causing me. If I could endure the months and months of struggle, and losses of your siblings, I can endure all of these discomforts knowing that you are healthy and strong. Your kicks that are getting stronger and stronger each week prove this to me. You may have a stubborn streak because you like to stay so low and cover up your face so the doctors cannot see your full face, I pray that this stubborn streak transfers into a young man that is able to stand strong in the Lord even when others try to move you.

Call me sappy, but I cried the other day thinking about you growing up. I could almost see you tall, dark, and handsome, like your daddy, on your wedding day. I am already praying for your future wife and you aren't even born! I truly thought our first child we held in our arms would be a little girl, but I now know that God had the best plan for our family. I think about how much of a blessing you will be, to have a little boy that grows up to be a man, one that knows how to treat and respect women, because Heaven knows we need more of them on this earth.

I pray life is good to you. That you have no big complaints having James and I as your mother and father. I hope we are where you feel safe at home, that God truly will use us to help you grow into a strong man of God, and you feel blessed to have us as your Mom and Dad. I pray that you will never feel too judged to come to us with anything. I hope that life gives you just enough bits of the hard stuff so you will not take things for granted, but not so much that you lose hope and feel crushed by it. That you will be sensitive to others in need, not be afraid to step up when a friend or family member needs a shoulder to cry on, that you will have your father's sense of humor and worth ethic, and that you will be a blessing to everyone you meet in life.

I do not know what God has in store for you, but I do know it will be something bigger than we could ever imagine. A good friend once said, "You will be like Hannah and Elizabeth, who prayed and prayed and God gave them a baby." (Thank you DeAnn!) I didn't think much of it then, where I was at with our journey, but now I certainly do. All of that prayer for a baby, and for all the things we have prayed for you, before you were even here God has to have big plans for you! Look at the children that Hannah and Elizabeth were blessed with. They raised men that were vitally important to ministry.

It has been a rough road to get you here, and you aren't even in my arms yet, but feeling you kick and watching my belly grow gives me so much hope that it is truly possible that your father and I will know what it is like to parent a newborn little boy before the end of the year. I am thankful for the struggle, because it makes me realize how precious life truly is. And how blessed couples are to have children, conception and growth of an embryo into a living breathing newborn is truly a miracle!

Tonight when thinking about where we have come to this point, I realized your due date is so close to when I found out that I have a unicornuate uterus. Isn't it amazing how God can cultivate healing in the heart over a year? You have replaced the sorrow and despair over my less than perfect lady parts with Joy in knowing that they Lord is forever Good and Faithful. He can truly do anything, with God nothing is impossible. Please keep this in mind, even when tough things in life may make it seem like you are in the dark and surely about to walk into some devastating obstacle. God will make a way. Be it with a small light to brighten your path so you can see, or a friend that will help you walk the path so you do not feel as alone and desperate.

You have been prayed for by more people than either of us can imagine. And while the tears that flowed at times haven't helped my post nasal drip, getting the words out were necessary for my heart. Because, call me cheesy, but sometimes I feel like my heart is full of love so much that it may burst.

I love you little man, and cannot wait for your arrival in December. You are SO loved and wanted.
♥ Mommy

Delicious Creamy Chicken-Mushroom Pasta

So I have made a decision, due to our crazy lives where we do not truly get to sit down together and have a meal, unless it is a weekend, I am going to start utilizing our crock pot more (at least once a week) so we can just sit down and enjoy eating together instead of me cooking and scrambling to figure out what to make last minute before James goes to work.

This weeks first try at crock pot cooking was DELICIOUS. I found a recipe on pinterest (here) and adapted it some with a combo of my own thinking and ideas from another recipe.

Here are the ingredients:

• 29oz of frozen chicken breast (this is how it panned out, and I wanted to count calories)
• 1 package of Good Season's Zesty Italian dressing mix
• 1 container of Philadelphia's Onion and Chive cream cheese
• 1/4 cup of Philadelphia's whipped cream cheese (probably could have done without, but was in fridge already)
• 1 small can of cream of mushroom soup
• 1 small can of cream of chicken soup
• 1 small package fresh mushrooms, sliced
• 2 cups chicken broth
• 1 package Ronzoni Garden Delight's pasta 
• 1/2 cup wheat flour 

Directions:

• Mix together (in crock pot): 
• Zesty Italian Dressing
• Both types of cream cheese, softened
• both small cans of condensed soup (next time I will look for reduced sodium, because I am sure sodium is WAY out there)
• 2 cups chicken broth
• Mushrooms
• Add frozen chicken
• Allow to cook until chicken is done (I let it cook on low for like 10 hours, put it on before bedtime, and ate for lunch next day)
• Boil the Pasta (may be able to do in crock pot and forego the wheat flour, but it made me nervous!)
• Take the chicken out (I used a pasta server) and shred it. Set aside
• Wisk in 1/2 cup whole wheat flour to crock pot, allow to simmer to thicken
• Mix together Pasta, Chicken, and Sauce

You should have 12 one cup servings, equaling 290 calories each, 30 carbs, 10g fat, 19g protein. 

I am sure it is SUPER high in sodium, so make sure to drink lots of water to balance it out ;-)

I didn't think to take a picture of the food IN the crock pot, so this is what is left,
after dishing out 6 cups for James and I to eat/bring to work.
Can you say DEEEELICIOUS!? Because the baby certainly thinks so ;-)

Next Crock Pot adventure: Slow Cooker Salsa Chicken

Ohhhh...and P.S. 2nd coat of green is on, and any indecisiveness I had is out the window. I love it :-)

And P.S.S. I have to celebrate for James even though he hasn't recorded his weight yet on MFP, he is under 300lbs today! :-) SO proud of my husband! I think that means he has lost 25 lbs now. He is doing great with making she he gets up and goes for a jog before work. If only I could join him!! Looking forward to that day. For now I need to try to start doing some pregnancy Yoga, doing some leg exercises, and lifting some little dumbbells. 

22w6d - Picture Update & Appointment

I also took a few additional in the outfit I was wearing yesterday. Goodwill and Craigslist finds on the clothing!

Definite bump, don't tell me I don't look pregnant.
Because it means I just look fat.

Wowza to legs, and not to happy with how shorts look on me (but super cheap and have a FULL band which is WONDERFUL)
but look at belly! SO stinking happy overall!

My view from up top.  If you look, you can tell baby sits on the right.

I am going to keep this short and simple as I can (ok I know I am long winded)

My house smells like dog pee, if it isn't one thing it is another. 

Cat pee last week, dog pee this week.

Bring it on! :-)

(Except please no smells that make me physically gag and run to trash/toilet just in case puking actually happens)

My cervix is holding up AMAZING at 4.48cm

Baby is measuring right on track at 23w1d (exact from LMP)

Heartbeat was 143 this time.

Baby weighs about 1lb 4oz

My belly is measuring 25 weeks, but doctor said baby's growth is right on track in 55th percentile, so nothing to worry about.

Baby also hid his face from us, hands up by face and everything. 

Head so far down , even poking and prodding didn't make him move. AT ALL. 

We managed to see his ear, eyes (or black spots rather), nose, and top lip. 

No profile. Again. And as soon as out of u/s room what did baby do?

Kick and move up quite a bit. 

Little stinker.

As per lovely varicose veins,  TMI, so read at own risk....

I work in the medical field and tell it like it is...

I honestly didn't know that varicose veins on your lady parts could be a concern, 

Until I was swollen and sore. Poor James had to confirm because doctor couldn't get me in.

BUT thankfully I learned that I don't look too bad down there, 

Because doctor informed me it could be worse...

She said she has seen it so bad that it looks like a bag of worms.

Yes, on your lady bits. I am sure you get the (disgusting) picture 

(curious? *probably not I know* upon googling about this lovely affliction I read 

people call it cheeseburger crotch...DIS-FRIGGING-SCUSTING).

So I got my script for a lovely contraption that looks like a female jock strap. Joy.

(The V2 Supporter if you are curious)

And she informed me the varicose veins get worse with each subsequent pregnancy.

And that they may not go away after pregnancy but after a few months wont be sore any more.

If this is the case, I am getting surgery I think...because GROSS

God loves me. Can't you tell?! ;-)

*sigh* James is going to need a blind fold to be intimate with me!! 

ok, or maybe I will need him to be blind folded to be comfortable...

( I also realized  spelled varicose wrong in photo above, so photo editing will need to be in order )

Done with TMI talk, I promise

Got the plan of  action for the rest of the pregnancy:

25w - transvaginal u/s to check for cervical length, and regular to check for profile, again

27w - glucose results, transvaginal u/s to check for cervical length, and regular to check for fetal growth

32w - begins weekly non stress test (NST) and ultrasound to check level of amniotic fluid, ALSO monthly fetal growth check

33w-35w - NST & Fluid Check

36 w - NST, Fluid Check, AND Fetal growth check, as well as beginning heparin 2x a day instead of lovenox once a day.

That's it for now, nap time, then quick picking up and vacuuming before my sister gets here to help me clean carpets, and possibly work on nursery some more.

THEN maybe grocery shopping.

Thank goodness for this day off, because my allergies are kicking my booty.

More and MORE Real each Day (Photo Heavy)

Sunday my sisters, Stacey & Missy, and my best friend Jenny went with me to register for our little man.

First we registered at BabysRUs, then we headed over to Target.

It was SO much fun, and made me realize how quickly our little one will be here. 

I tried to be realistic when registering, and at first selected clothing...but once I got home took them off.

Because honestly, people are going to buy clothes whether I register or not.

Because baby clothes are stinking ADORABLE!!

AND I have no problem with hand me downs for clothing.

We did begin painting the nursery today though, thanks to my Mom! :-) 

I still need to pick up a bit more in there.

But it can wait, until we are mostly done painting,

 because I want to steam clean it before setting up our crib

And want painting to be done before then!

Beginning of painting the Nursery! Needs 1 or 2 more coats of yellow!
Below the window to the left will be the baby's crib,
Still undecided where dresser/changer and glider will go.
Would also like to add a shelf/bench for baby books and such.

Corner of nursery.

Our very lucky baby's closet! Big and spacious

I bought 2 onesies the same night of gender reveal
This is one of them

And this is the other one :-)

I think my sister bought this one...
sadly, I didn't remember it when I opened the closet today!
And got super excited and happy!

And this is on the butt of the pants

I want to do something like this in the bottom of the closet I think
I found it on Pinterest, but you can see it here,
Unless we do not get a dresser, then there may be some Sterilite drawer units

Moving around the room from closet

Continued moving around the room..

This is going to go on the wall between door to this corner,
thinking about getting sleeping monkey flipped so he can go on branch where hanging one is at
going to have to make a cut in the tree so it can fit above and below chair rail
And may get the branch and that hanging monkey reversed as well.
So the dresser/changer  can be away from the door
 yet, be in between the tree and branch closer to the wall!
Found it here on etsy.

Instead of the leaves on the tree above,
I am thinking these alphabet leaves!!
Cute, no?
Again found on etsy, here

I also plan on getting the elephant, lion, zebra, and possibly tuffs of grass.
Found here on etsy.

Not very good on lighting (at all!), so it doesn't give the colors justice...but these are the colors
A little unsure of the green, but going to wait until we have a bigger space painted ..
and then decide.
I bought the cans of paint back when we moved in,
because I was SURE we would be pregnant again, soon with a sticky baby.
Wrong. So now popping the lids off those cans of paint feels AMAZING.
There will be a dark brown chair rail that will match the color of door and trim in room.
Also debating about a very very light blue colored ceiling and inside of closet.
My sister Stacey suggested it, and I think it might be a go...we shall see...

My co-worker Nichole bought this fabric to make curtains for the room.
The monkey print is for valances, and the brown for curtains.
Super cute, this validated thought of putting light blue, but still undecided

I thought I had decided on a crib, but I have been true to who I am
And become undecided. lol
This one is Summer Infant's Brayden. 4-1
It was set up at BabysRUs and it was SO solid!
It's price is $299, but regardless of crib I plan on buying it when they are 20% off on site
and loading VIB card so I can get an additional 10% off essentially because it would be added to the card.
Making it 30% off!! Pretty AWESOME if you ask me!
Making us pay around $220 with tax.

Then we are planning on getting the dresser/changer pictured on left.
Again, quite solid and just what I was looking for, something that can grow with the child!
And not be only used for a changing table.
This is 399. And will follow same plan as above.
Bringing our cost down to around $300 with tax.
We might see about buying a dresser from a furniture store, but we shall see!

This crib is DaVinci's Kalani's 4-1...the one that I had decided upon
Pros of this one is it comes with the toddler rail,
I can order the conversion kit right online for full sized,
and it is about $50 cheaper than the one above.
Cons are I do not get to see it set up to see sturdiness and such.
I truly walked into babysRus planning on NOT picking one off the floor because I liked this one so much
But I was wrong...and now am left undecided.

I am still undecided on baby monitor.
Part of me wants to go for AngelCare monitor that has movement with it.
Only because I truly know how precious life is, and my cousin died of SIDs at 23 days old.
When I was in 5th grade, and I can still remember clear as day going to her funeral.
Heartbreaking.

BUT I also know, the regardless of type of monitor God is in control.
If I go for this one, with my mom working at walmart she could purchase it 10% off their price
Making the one with one monitor about $80.
Same with the jogger I want, cheaper at walmart, can get her discount.
I am all about saving money!!
I even made a registry at Walmart just so she could look at it and see the exact items I wanted :-)
So if anyone wanted to get together with my mom if planning on getting one of the items,
you could save some money!!

If you look at my registry and see that I am missing something or have registered for something you deem completely necessary PLEASE let me know!
I do not want to have people spend money on things that end up being useless.

Tomorrow is my next ultrasound, quite excited to see our little man.
Hoping to get quite a few more pictures.
Especially ones that include the profile, and face!
Hopefully the little buddy is still head down,
but not SO low that we cannot get the measurements and pictures still needed.
Tomorrow I will be 22w6d (which means picture day!)

Gender Reveal (Photo Heavy)

I wrote this the night of our party, but forgot to click publish...woops!

I am tired and getting ready for bed but here are some of the pictures...

Pink Lemonade! Loved the lights on bottom :-)

Blue punch I found on pinterest (1 thing of Hawaiian punch, 1 2L of vernors, 1 thing of white grape juice and 1 container of pineapple sherbert)

Our cake Meyer Bakery came up with the quote himself!!

Decorations

Cake table. Notice the butterflies on boxes...these were the money boxes for voting.
Votes went in glass jars with flowers on top.
Totals were 50 pink, 30 blue.
We were wrong, James and I included. This baby will be the first Hillard boy from a male in the family.
Also, see the chocolate cupcakes? They were AMAZING! Chocolate cupcake, with cream filling, and chocolate frosting.
WAY more delicious than the cake if I do say so myself, too bad they couldn't color the cream on the inside!

By the votes...Old Wives Tales & Voting Rules

Side view of cake after served to guests
Marble Cake with Butter Cream middle

Happy Daddy and Mommy! Hubby is excited and in disbelief that he is going to have a son.
And I am feeling a bit unprepared. Thankful for nephew and day care kids that allowed me to practice on them!
I know little girls better than little boys!

Punch went fast. Good day.
The End.

Party Details & Bump Photos

Sorry I have been SO busy lately, lots has been going on. I had that week where I was having some major braxton hicks at work. Topped with my cervix shortening a tad...but then lengthening back up to an amazing 5.1 when I went in to make sure it wasn't shortening more with the braxton hicks (which by the way the doctor said it was good for keeping baby in, but I needed to remember to pray for it to shorten in due time as well). The doctor also gave me hope for a natural pregnancy. She said the women that she has worked with with unicornuate uterus (UU), their babies were breach at 19 weeks and ended up having c-sections due to this. Currently our little one is head down and SO low.

How low? SO low that they cannnot get a good picture of the head or profile. How crazy is that? And that is even with a transvaginal ultrasound. I did get the update at our anatomy scan that they will be doing ultrasounds at every  appointment to watch for cervical length AND growth of the baby. There can be issues with fetal growth in women with UU. I kind of wish the doctors would get on the same page on this one, some have told me no more u/s at 24 weeks, one other said 28, and this last one said every time. I guess we will have to wait and see what happens. Regardless, I am not really complaining about all the extra peeks into our baby's world. Even if it is because we are considered high risk. I am currently 21w1d and a little less than 3 weeks from viability!! Which is a pretty big sigh of relief.

At the anatomy scan, we had the ultrasound tech turn the screen when looking for baby's gender. And had her write it in an envelope, and put a picture of the gender in a manilla envelope. Baby was measuring 3 days ahead of date set from first ultrasound, which had me due at 12/19. But they kept my due date according to last period, making me due 12/17. So baby is growing ahead of both! Baby was measuring 11oz (which was ahead of schedule of "normal" as well), head down, and feeling quite lazy after being busy that morning from the caffeine I had drank. My sisters Missy and Stacey were with James and me at the appointment, and were quite excited to see the baby. 

We got these cute little pictures....

And most importantly this is envelope that will help us know what the baby is going to be...

The gender reveal is August 11th, this Saturday!! Only 2 days away!! Current guest list for party is at 37 people. With an additional possible 8 or so more people coming. 

I ordered the half a sheet cake today, it serves 48. I am contemplating adding on a dozen cupcakes as well. The sheet cake is going to be marble with colored butter cream frosting in middle, covered in whipped cream frosting. Decorated in pink and blue polka dots and question marks. Still working on the wording for it...
And if I order cupcakes they will be chocolate, with chocolate frosting. With colored cream filling. (Doesn't that sound DELICIOUS!!) 

Anyways...here are the bump photos! I will give you the comparisons :-)

I also wanted to share my amazing idea (ok kind of stolen a little bit from pinterest) for our gender party.

I am purchasing a book, and I am going to have guests sign the front inside cover, with room on the back page as well. On the back cover I am going to write the baby a letter about my feelings that morning and the journey thus far.

Here is the book I purchased... 

You can purchase the book HERE

And if you go to above link you can also look at a few of the inside pages of the book.

It brings tears to my eyes every time I read it. I can remember first reading it. I was post second miscarriage, working at the day care. And a little kid asked me to read it to them. Holding back tears I choked out the beginning of the story....

"Good night, sweet child," Mama said as she tucked Little Cub in.
But Little Cub wasn't quite ready to go to sleep.
"Mama, where did I come from?" she asked.
"From God," her mother answered. "Your papa and I were alone, and we wanted a baby."
"And you got me?" Little Cub asked, her voice muffled by the covers.
"Yes, my special child. God gave us you."

Does that not rip at your heart strings? Because it certainly does mine.

Because it is the truth.

 Loss after Loss God gave us the experience with THIS special child to be ours to love. 

To feel the little kicks, to watch my belly grow, to know that there is life inside of me growing healthy and strong.

If you are going through the dark road of infertility still, I wish God will fill your heart with joy as much as he has mine. And that one day, all of us will have little ones snuggled in our laps that we can read this book to, and know that it holds more meaning to us than other woman may ever know.

Because the road to a baby isn't always easy. It isn't always carefree.

Babies don't always come by accident. 

Some of us have to try. And pray. And beg God to answer our prayers.

Some of us have to endure loss after loss.

Some of us spend gobs of money for the hope of having a little one of our own.

Some of us have our faith  and relationships stretched to their limits in the journey of waiting for a baby.

We learn storks aren't real. It isn't in the water. And relaxing doesn't always help.

To those of you still on this path, I pray hope stays in your heart. That you are able to lean on God.

And that those of us that know your pain and suffering do not forget and in turn hurt you.

I am beyond excited to one day read this book to our child, to know if we are having a daughter or a son, and enjoy some delicious cake on Saturday!! :-) For now I need to get cleaning last minute stuff for our party. Busy, busy day!

♥