(I wrote this last week Wednesday but never posted it!)
This week I have been sick. My allergies have definitely been kicking my butt. Last week Sunday after the 5k I woke up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat. I was shivering and James let me know I was burning up when I woke him up and he yelled, "You are an oven!" So I got up, fulmbled around as quietly as I could in the dark trying not to wake up Laura, Joe, or Gauge. I found a thermometer and some medicine. Showered and managed to get back to sleep.
That was the beginning. Tuesday I still wasnt feeling any better so I missed class and went to urgent care. The strep test came back negative but it looked like strep so Dr. Treated as such. Thursday STILL not better, my allergies kicked in. Que trip to family Dr. And new prescription for a nasal allergy med. I have had little or no voice for over a week now. I am so ready to be back to normal.
In the midst of all of my sick week I counted calories still, even when Girl Scout Cookies came in and I overindulged. The good news? Today, Weigh in Wednesday...I lost weight still!
I have 1.8lbs to go until I am no longer obese. I will be in the overweight category with the goal of one day this year being in the "normal" range. I am excited and pationate about making my life better.
This is the year of change. Allowing things to finally come to pass that I have put excuses in front of why I hadn't done things. Things such as: losing weight, running a 5k, pursuing nursing school...you get the picture. I am ready to eat healthy, exercise regularlly, maintain and pursue healthy friendships, dive into the Bible, succeed at nursing school, and let God do things in my life he might otherwise been unable because I wasn't following the path he had for me.
I am going to be and display the best light and salt that I can be. Spreading the love of Christ along the way. I want people to question why I keep a positive outlook on life inspite of the deck of cards that have been handed to me, I want to be an inspiration for others to do the next small step in their lives that will better them. I want to spread hope. I want to stand firm in Christ and have his light shine through me.
Life has been crazy this month. Fifth Miscarriage. Michael moved out, got sent to jail, and is now moved back in. My dad had heart surgery, and is currently in the hospital for blood clots in his left lung. I got sick, and am still waiting for my voice to be back to normal (I miss singing in my car!). Life has been hectic, stressful, but guess what? I wouldn't change it.
Our fifth miscarriage allowed me to realize I am in a MUCH better place with Christ than the past year.
Michael moving out and going to jail allowed James and I to have time together and feel like US again. And maybe it will be what Mike needed to learn and better his life. Maybe moving back in with us will allow us to show him Christ. To teach him life lessons he missed growing up.
My father having heart issues allowed us to tear off the ugly dead tissue on our relationship and give us the possibility to heal and grow into a more healthy relationship. Yes, a scar will always remain but it had no chance of healing with necrotic tissue stunting the healing factor. I wish it wouldn't have needed to go this far, but it has and guess what? I am ready for the posibility of a healthy relationship.
Being sick and losing my voice helped me to realize first of all God can help me through Nursing school...he has made me capable and is for me passing the program. Secondly, I took having a voice for granted. Third, I do not spend enough time quiet with God. Fourth, I need to spend more time listening.
And guess what? I have been doing welll with life even with everything going on. I am stronger and I can make it through any mud and muck with Jesus by my side.
Life is Good.
James is helping a local farmer in the morning and working long long days. Our even shortened time together reminds
